Poetry Friday: Seasonal Blues and The Inspiration We Choose
Yoda and I differ in our views on grammar. But we both like green.
I live in extreme upstate New York, where winters can get pretty rough and seem to last forever. It’s taken me years to admit it, but I do get a touch of the seasonal blues when the trees become bare and the hours of daylight start shrinking. I need my greenery, and so when all the green stuff disappears and all the living things go to sleep in their winter hideaways, I start to feel a bit sad. I watched a poof of leaves blow off a tree just the other day and actually felt the blood drain from my face. I’m sure if anyone been around me at that moment, they might have thought I was about to become ill. If SADD can be considered an illness, I suppose I was about to become ill.
I struggle with this every October, but it took me a loooong time to recognize that. I used to blame it on my hectic schedule and the fact that two months into school, my life as a teacher gets really crazy. I blamed it on other things, too, before coming to the simple realization that I really needed to stop trying to pinpoint the source and instead, focus on the solution.
In addition to doing some of those simple things (vitamins, exercise, supplements, etc.) for my biological self, I try hard to change my emotional filters at this time of the year. I count my blessings frequently. I surround myself with the people and things that I love: my supportive husband, my exuberant kids, my amazing students, my favorite chai tea, a new writing pen and journal, and a foot-warming cat. I’ve found that this is the time of year that I can find myself in a bit of a writing rut, too, so I do my best to switch writing gears and try something new…take a break from my current project to refresh and re-energize.
With that, here’s my first attempt ( a draft) at a cleave poem. If you’re not completely familiar with this unusual and challenging form, it’s a form that can be read in three different ways: you can read the left side as an individual poem; you can read the right side as an individual poem; you can also read the poem from left to right as one whole poem. Each reading should deliver different effects on the same subject.
As you read this cleave poem, you may notice the ongoing battle between my seasonal blues and my seasonal inspirations. This draft is far from perfect, as is my temporary victory over my ongoing battle with SADD this time of the year. But it leaves me lots of room for reflection and growth…and most importantly, room for inspiration.
What are your inspirations? What gets you through the blahs?
Today is Poetry Friday! Today’s Poetry Friday round-up is hosted by Linda at Teacher Dance.
Your cleave poem works so beautifully. I have not yet tried this challenging form. I love the use of sight and sound to create the two verses. Masterful!
Thank you, Margaret! I still have more work to do on this, but I am so happy to have at least accomplished a workable draft in this difficult form. Thanks so much for stopping by!
Very nicely done, Liana.
All of your SADD ideas sound good. Would a new houseplant or two at this time of year help you feel like you’ve got a bit more green around you?
Thanks, Tabatha. Unfortunately, my housecat thinks that indoor plants are litter boxes. 🙂 But I have tried doing that at school, and it does help. Thanks for stopping by!
I’m impressed by you taking on this form Liana. I will have to try it some time. You did a great job of showing your ongoing battle.
Thank you, Penny!
Beautiful poem, Liana–and what a challenging puzzle to write!
Thanks, Buffy! A puzzle is a perfect metaphor for the cleave. 🙂
Liana – I like the changes you’ve made! and I understand now the use of the cleave form for this poem. I’m glad you’re focusing on the solutions. My solution was a little more extreme. WINK! Nice work!
Thanks, B.J. It’s still a draft, and it’s not quite where I want it to be yet, but I’ll keep at it. I’m still looking for more solutions to this seasonal stuff, as I don’t want to have to be forced to take extreme measures to feel good 8 mos. out of the year!
I think this is terrific, Liana! Not only have you achieved 3 poems in one, but you’ve also managed to give each poem a distinctive personality and voice. Bravo!
Thanks, Michelle! It’s not quite where I want it to be just yet, but it’s a start. And the the start is as important as the finish!
What a challenge this structure is, and what a wonderful response you wrote with it. I like hearing the process you are trying with the changing of the seasons being another kinds of challenge. I don’t experience those feelings, but have a friend who does, and perhaps she will like your ideas. Thanks for all Liana.
Thank you, Linda. And thanks so much for hosting PF today!
Beautiful poem, Liana, and beautiful way to use creativity to soothe your soul. I’ve never tried the cleave form, but I’m inspired to try it sometime. Thank you. =)
Thank you, Bridget. A gal in my critique group is really good at this form, and I’m happy to say that I tried it and got a draft down. It’s still a work-in-progress, but I’m pleased that I gave it a shot. Good luck, and I hope to read your cleave poem some time soon!
I love this. I recommend a move to the tropics. Just kidding (mostly), but I can really sympathize. I live in the tropics, and when we have a hurricane go through, and two or three days without sun, I get so depressed. I have lived in darker places before, but I don’t know how! It sounds like you are doing all the right things to cope with it.
Yes, the tropics! That sounds so nice. I do love the wildlife here in the north country woods, though. Maybe I love it a little too much, actually. That may be why fall and winter are so hard on me. All the wildlife seems to disappear so suddenly. Thanks for stopping by, Ruth!
Lovely! This is a form I’d like to try!!
Sending you happy thoughts of daisies and sunshine!!
Thanks, Mary Lee. Go for it…it’s like a puzzle, really. Challenging, but fun, too.
Wow, Liana, I’ve never tried this form, but it can’t be easy. Beautifully done! I’ve copied it so I can study it some more. Lovely lovely.
I hope you find more beauty in the changing seasons!
Thanks, Renee. This form is a real challenge, for sure. You should give it a try!